25/02/2011..i still love you..like i did when i was 14..

25/2/2011

update cerita yang boring..kisah aku yang itulah..yang ada mr-you-know-who..

okay,mesti ada antara kamu yang "eh,bukan sudah berakhir?"

and i'll go like this "entahlah.."

*hanya mampu senyum dengan perasaan sendiri kebingungan(ok,aku pun tidak tahu macam mana rupa senyuman itu..)*

it goes like..it is a fullstop..or should i say,it was a fullstop..

memang keras aku..tapi,a big TAPI..tapi pada masa itu saja..a big HADOI..

*sigh and sigh until tired..

bila aku tidak mahu,dia datang..

bila aku mula lupa,dia datang..

datang berhabis..

lagaknya macam aku satu-satunya yang dia mahu...

memang,memang aku yang dia mahu..

tapi..macam mana..

macam mana bila dia sendiri tidak tahu apa yang dia mahu..

dan lagi,dia tidak tahu apa dia perlu...

kau perlu aku,sayang...

kau mahu,aku...

it is obvious..hmmm?

dan..bila pula aku sudah mula melayan...

mulalah dia hilang balik..

mulalah macam aku pula yang mengejar..

lagaknya tiba-tiba vice versa..

jadinya aku yang berhabis mahu dia..

memang kita ini lelaki dan perempuan berbicara bahasa yang berlainan kan?we do talk different language..

aku sampai beli buku "men are from mars,women are from venus" supaya aku dapat sort out what the hell is happening between me and you..how can i improve this relationship..

*ketawa dan tersengih malu mengimbau semangat aku yang sampai beli buku motivasi..hadoi 3x.....*

kau buzz buzz aku di ym..kau mesej aku banyak kali..indah juga rasanya bila kau mula tercari-cari..

and sekarang...aku pula yang buzz,aku mesej..kau pula tidak reply..

*ketat terus muka aku,yawwwww....ketawa kuat-kuat*

tapi,tidak apa..kau selitkan "sorry,aku ada kuiz esok.."

hmmmm..study itu penting...baiklah,aku pun ada test sebenarnya..tapi,boleh pula sibuk pening kepala pikir pasal kau..

*aku sendiri bingung kenapa aku begini..

itulah bezanya kau dan aku kan..

tapi,mungkin satu hari nanti kita akan bahagia gila-gila dan tidak pening pasal hal kecil ini kan??

tidak lama lagi pun,tunggu lah weekend,pasti kau mesej aku gila-gila punya..*senyum

kau hebat..hebat mampu buat aku begini..masih begini..tidak pernah tidak begini..sejak kita berumur 14 tahun..tidak dapat aku nafikan..kau hebat..

dan aku hanya mampu berdoa,moga kau lah jodoh aku..sebab kalau tidak,berdosalah aku pada suamiku kerana aku memberikan cintaku kepada kau yang sepatutnya menjadi hak miliknya seorang..so,i wish,my deadly wish is you are the one..and please be the one!

25/02/2011..i still love you..like i did when i was 14..

why?

Why do You ignore the girl who is in Love with you, the one girl who know's you've done wrong plenty of times and still want's to be with you , the one girl who doesn't care what others say about you, the one girl who know's your completely wrong for her but still want's YOU, and only YOU, why do you ignore the girl who could really make you happy, the one that maybe deep down you know you truly love her too, Why won't you accept her. ~Scares the Hell outta you doesn't it?

-just smile,can't say much..it hits me like dush dush straight at my face..

mr-you-know-who..just like you,is it?

=)

just sharing..=)

Girl: So is it gonna be me, or her?

Boy: If you loved me, you wouldn't make me choose.

Girl: If you loved me, there wouldn't even be an option.

-that is how a boy is different with a girl..we do talk different language,right?=)

Girl gets a new bf.

1 month. "HE'S MY WORLD."
They break up.
"I gave him everything!"
Another new bf.
1 month. "HE MEANS EVERYTHING TO ME."
They break up.
ANOTHER BF.
1 week. "I love him more than life itself."
Repeat process 20 times.
Did you ever really love ANY of them, or are you a fucking IDIOT that has no standards or patience!?

-this is what it looks like when you have too many ex-es..just stay calm,will you?the right one will come..take it easy,hmm?=)