hatiku,saat ini..

biar kita bagai ribut dan taufan,

sebab yang kecil pun kadang kala

kita besarkan sehingga bergigit lidah,

tapi kau harus ingat,

itu yang buat kita manis...

masa depan aku,

kau atau bukan kau pendamping halalku,

aku tidak tahu..

tapi yang aku tahu,

kau sampai mati aku sayang..

untuk putuskan semuanya,

bukan sekadar "aku xmau contact kau lagi",

bukan sekadar perempuan2 yang ada di luar sana

yang menyinggah di sarang hatimu untuk sekejap cuma,

tapi apa kita tahu,

yang menyinggah sepintas angin itulah mungkin

menjadi pendamping halalmu pula...

cuma,

aku tahu..

kita rasa,rasa yang sama..

cuma,

cerita Tuhan,

kita tidak tahu..

maka aku piciskan pada sang hati,

"kalau kau orangnya,kaulah orangnya"..

aku lupa,kita tidak sama....

aku lupa...
aku lupa,kita tidak sama..
bila aku lupa kita tidak sama,itu lah punca aku terkejut/tidak senang/marah/sedih/apa-apa lah feeling yang tidak bagus..

bila aku makan dengan kawan2 di hostel..sudah makan,then naik bilik..suddenly ada yang cakap dia lapar lagi..then aku terkejut,tidak cukup kah kami makan tadi..aku kenyang masih..then,aku akan ckp "baru pun kita makan????"..aku lupa,perut kita tidak sama..sorry kawan2..

bila aku dan kawan2 tidur lambat..then bangun pun lambat..then kami bangun,mandi..then ada yang akan tidur balik lagi..aku pun akan jadi "belum puas lagi kamu tidur???" aku lupa,kita tidak sama...

bila aku boleh setia and orang lain tidak boleh,sekali lagi aku lupa,kita tidak samaaaaa..

there's once..aku hampir terlibat dengan accident..tapi,jadi tidak teruk sebab aku dapat kawal kereta and it ends up with just scratch at both of our cars..aku tidak turun dari kereta,aku tengok tiada apa-apa yang kemek,tercabut,jadi aku pun meneruskan perjalanan..plus,bukan aku yang salah..if she can handle her car better,then even a scratch pun ndakan terjadi..thanks to Allah aku berjaya kawal kereta,kalau tidak,ada juga tu yang tercabut bumper,hahahaha..
i thought,its nothing..rupa2nya mengejar pula tu kereta..maka aku pun stop..dia keluar dengan penuh emosi,and once she speak,dia begegar..ok,now i know..dia panik...n aku,gila punya tenang..no,aku tenang sebab its really nothing bah..just a scratch..aku nie bukan a hard fan of cars,plus,my car is not a lambo kah,merc kah,bmw kah,ferrari kah,nooo! hahahahah.. she panicked,and she just wanna check if my car is ok coz its her fault..then i said,its ok... bila dia kejar aku,sebenarnya,aku jadi traumaa...until i felt that i dont wanna drive anymore.and i hate that feeling..aku lupa....aku lupa dia tidak sama dengan aku,mungkin dia jenis cepat panik,and aku tidak..soo,aku marah...aku marah sebab dia buat aku trauma sikit....aku lupa yang dia tidak punya perasaan yang sama dengan aku and tidak mungkin dia boleh tenang.aku lupaa...

its just..kita manusia...cepat marah..mungkin sebab ini..kita selalu lupa untuk letak diri kita di tempat orang tersebut sebelum mengata or kita marah..

kalau kita lambat di serve,di kfc or di mana2,kita jadi marah!kita cakap "servis buruk!".. for once,just try,put yourself in their situations..we are not the only custommer for the whole day util they can serve us tahap 200%.."customer is always right?" hahaha,janganlah ambil kesempatan pula..humanity is mostly important in our life..

"kenapa aku boleh buat,and kau tidak boleh??"

"kenapa dia boleh,aku tidak boleh???"

sebab kita tidak sama..our capability is different! and our body system is different..

sooo,
when i'm hungry,you might not be hungry..
when i'm sleepy,you might not be sleepy..
when i loved you,you might not loved me..

i have to start remember that..
yang kita punya rasa yang berbeza..
agar aku tidak cepat meledak,marah tidak tentu arah..

its my ibu's birthday..

16102010..its my ibu's 39th birthday..

wow, a year before 40??seriously,i have a big party to plan right?

she's currently in Philippines for a vacation,together with ayah and lil bro,azam..

its been 4days,without their voice,hahhaa..

well,i'll talk to them everyday actually,so,its kind of weird and my days were'nt complete without it..but we are connected by facebook,hahaha..everyday,ayah will upload their new pictures,and i'll comment them..thats the only way..well,it'll cost a lot even to reply a message kan,hehehe..rm 2 is quite a lot kan,hehehe..no lah,if just wanna say hai and hear my daily life story,better dont,hehehe..such a waste ja..

my ibu, i love her..lol,who didnt love her mum?hahahah..

she's the biggest influence in my life,she'd do everything for me,when i say everything,it is evrything..

maybe its my luck,kind of,if i tell her that i want something,there's 99.9% possibility that i would get what i want..not only me,to my brothers too,not only us,to her siblings and friends too..

she's the greatest present that i have from ALLAH..cant compared to anybody else..she's the reason that i breath for over 20years..

when i achieved anything,even the very little achievement,she'll be proud of me like it was the biggest achievement a human can made,hahahahahaha..thats a mu

m right..oh,miss you now,ibu..

when i say "oh ibu,i'll fail,i'll fail!" and she calmly says "u lose before u tried?? do your best,leave the rest to ALLAH..but,you are sooo not gonna fail..ibu knows you.." well yes,ive never failed,hahahahahha..most of it,yang sikiiiiiiiit lagi mau fail,ahahahha..aku rasa mmg fail bah tu,tp berkat doa ibu,nda jadilah fail,ahhahahaah..

i think im not a good daughter,but ive tried to be..but ibu will owez says "im proud of u", "u are the best"..

a mother,is the greatest creature that ALLAH made,with a big loving heart, with a spirit like they will stand even until the world war 5,haahhaha..

ibu,i miss you badly..happy birthday ibu..terima kasih sebab lahirkan kakak..=] nda rugi lahir ke dunia,kalau ada ibu mcm ibu!=]

"ya ALLAH,kau berkatilah ibuku,ampunkan segala dosanya, di atas segala kebaikannya kepada orang dan pengorbannya terhadap keluarga kami, please save a place for her in heaven.. jauhkan ibuku dari kesusahan,berkati perjuangannya..berikan ibuku kesihatan yang baik,kesabaran yang jitu dan keteguhan untuk berada di landasan mu.. jauhkan ibuku dari hasad dengki manusia, ataupun gang

guan syaitan durjana..sebab bagiku,ibu tidak layak walau sedikitpun untuk merasa kesusahan.. tapi,jika itu yang terbaik untuk ibuku,maka terpulanglah.."

my latest pic with ibu,raya 2010

keinginanku yang membuatkan aku agak pelik,=]..

there's one thing about me,something that i think it's ridiculous and annoying but,that's me..=]

that thing is,i dont like to have the same thing as others..its not to the phase until i own the only one thing in this world but enough when i didnt see it often anywhere,hahaha..

soooo,what actually happen is,now,im totally in love with LOMO..

what is LOMO??

its vintage,its out-dated,it is.......................great!

when everyone is trying to own their own DSLR, im busy searching for the best LOMO for me...

in white,of course..=]

the price,it can be as low as RM100,actually there are lots that are lower than rm100..

and can be up to thousands...depend on the function,of course..

for me,it is so unique...

i've told my ibu..and she says "kenapa pula mau balik ke zaman pakai filem??"

and i answered "coz anak ibu memang begini,mau lain2,=]"

sooo,hahahahaha..talking too much until i didnt explain what is LOMO,sorry for that..

LOMO stands for Leningrad Optical & Mechanical Union..

in an easy way...LOMO is a camera that uses film..yeah,FILM..

sooo,you have to go to the shop and "cuci",hahhaha..

these cameras produce different pictures depends on the type of cameras that you own..there's the fisheye,where your pictures will be in circle..the multilenses,that make your pictures readily made as 4up or even 8up..there's one,i forgot what the camera's name,but it can take a picture with 360 view...awesome,right..

so soon,so soon i'll own my LOMO..not one but a lot,hehe..