manusia berkepala otak, bisa berubah hati.

aku selesa begini.

tidur tidak didodoi, bangun tidak disambut.

oleh any text I mean.

sibuk aku,aku nda minta siapa2 faham.

jgn paksa diri utk faham.

mula-mula memang kau kata faham.

kata “ya, aku okay.” bila ada text yang tidak aku terbalas dek kesibukan.

tapi kau manusia juga kan. pelan2, jadi greedy.

greedy. tamak.

perlahan-lahan, 

kau minta apa yang aku tidak dapat beri,

untuk ganti kau dengan masa sibuk aku,

untuk itu, 

aku tidak mampu.

aku takut, tahu?

sekurang-kurangnya kerja aku tidak akan ranapkan hati aku,

tapi, 

kau manusia.

manusia berkepala otak,

yang boleh berubah hati.

jadi kalau nanti hati kau berubah,

mana mungkin aku bisa kuat lagi.

jadi, biar tiada.

satu ranap sudah cukup.

tidak boleh dua tiga kali. 

nanti mati jiwa ini. 

to fall in love, with me.

Before falling in love with me, you must know about the constant meltdown. You must know about my damaged heart, and my broken soul. Be aware that I never sleep at night, and sometimes I cry myself to sleep because I'm too tired of my daily life and routine. You must know about my need for your love, my need for your supports through my rough days and my constant fear of losing you. And know about my terrible fear of cats and the way I act ignorant to all the things happening around because I'm afraid of being hurt. 

But once you fall in love with that part of me, you can fall in love with my delicate smile. you can fall in love with the way I remembered all the tiny little details about you, your life. You can fall in love with the way I'll bake you cakes, not only for your birthday, but anytime when you feel like to eat one. The way i'll cheer you up when you have a hard day to go through. fall in love with the way I laugh and all the encouragement words that I'll give to you. fall in love with all the surprises I made because I'm so good in making people heart's warm at all the time that you won't see it coming. 

then, you can fall in love with me as a whole, or not love me at all. 

sincerely, 
nisa. 
:)

1st post for 2013

Hello 2013.

and its the last week of February.
nothing much. Don't really feel like sharing anything. 

just this once. picked from http://yasminthefilmmaker.blogspot.com/
its the late yasmin ahmad's blog. Al-fatihah as you came across this. 

here it is, 

"I wept recognizing that no one was perfect, and that if we expected to be loved for all our imperfections, why are we so reluctant to accept and forgive the imperfections of others?"

I believe you're good enough with words to understand exactly what that mean. accept. and accept. accept. 

we tend to ask people to accept our flaws, but yet, we always forget to be the one who accept others flaws. right? 

take care, good hearts!

sendiri mohon, sendiri lari

aku doa minta cinta.
tapi bila cinta datang, 
aku takut,
aku lari, 
konon takut mahu sakit lagi.

jadi, kenapa minta.
aneh.
kan.