Pure friendship? Pure love?

I was on the phone with one of my babe last few days. We are talking about, well we talked a lot of course haha. But mainly we open up this issue about love and friendship. Yeah boring~~~~

She did this, confessing her feelings to her best friend. How it happens, it is not the main thing about what I'm about to talk. But this. She said "thats the biggest mistake I've ever made in our friendship, i wont do it again, i wouldn't want to lose my best friend again, i wouldn't want to lose all the laugh we had......"

Confessing our love is not a mistake, i tell her. "ya, tidak salah tapi dengan itu situasi jadi serba salah" which after that i agree. Things became so awkward after that, it takes month of silence before everything be the same like before. Not same, but at least better than silence.

What captured my attention is this "i wouldn't want to lose all the laugh we had...." then i know she's talking about the real friendship. Pure friendship.

I was like ah so this is how real friendship is, i mean between a girl and a boy. Sebab aku pegang mazhab 'tiada lelaki dan perempuan boleh berkawan tanpa ada rasa cinta, pasti ada yang terlebih rasa'.

That feelings, yang dia rasa, biarlah aku hilangkan rasa cinta ni, yang penting aku nda hilang beat friend aku, yang penting kami masih boleh berketawa, ada tempat aku meluah and all that.

That's a remarkable feeling you know. So pure. As long as i have him as friend, it is more than enough.

I always think that I'm building a friendship with my ex. My case might be different because he's my best friend too so it is indeed hard to say the good bye. But i have this thinking that as a friend, I have to leave because I'm giving him spaces so he can love other girls without me on his sight. Well now people, that is not pure friendship. That is a bit feeling of love still hanging within myself. Because if I'm really a good friend, i'll stay, forgetting what ever love that we had, and stay, at least, so that i can hear all the laughter of a friend like what my babe said.

No I'm not thinking of going back or looking back but comparing myself to my babe, i should have stayed.

A pure friendship, it means, we can lose everything, every other thing but not the tears and joy of the people that means the world to us, which is our best friend. Its like you and I, against the world.

But pure love means, it is okay to lose the people that we love as long as they can be happy with the one they love. It is okay, let me cry in silence and you be happy. That is love. Pure love.

For love, it is okay to see your love one from distance.

But for friendship, no that is not okay,i have to be near to share the laughter and joy!

Because friendship means sharing, and love is all about sacrificing.

And that pure love that i meant it can be with anybody not just for lovebirds, for a mother to the child for example maybe something happen and make their relationship turns bad but a mother will still be watching and praying from far away.

Or the better example is how Allah love us despite we're doing so many unforgiven sins, how Allah give us many things even though we're doing all the wrong thing instead of sujud padaNya. That is pure love.

But you're lucky if you can get pure love and friendship from the same person. i used to think that i'm lucky because i used to have that. unfortunately, not anymore. :)

So, that is a bit about pure love and pure friendship from the sight of 21 years old me. Very soon to be 22.

A little advice

You're not supposed to say people changed after knowing s/he just for few months.

Because in just little time, people don't change, but it is just the beginning of showing the real part of them.

And. Here's the little advice baby girl, he didn't changed, he just get bored.....

Mending the pieces 1

It is amazing how we can update about each other in just few minutes, despite months not talking to each other.

They say, true friendship comes when silence becomes comfortable between two. :)

Doa ibu

29 july. Puasa ke 9.

Aku tidur awal tapi around 1am aku terbangun sebab bunyi notification twitter dari phone. Meol tweet "xnak ikut baking class ke?" hahah. Then rancak lah aku tweeting. Tweet punya tweet tidak sedar sampai jam 2 sudah. So alang-alang lah kan teruskan sampai sahur sebab aku lah tukang masak family, kalau aku terlajak tidur naya juga jadi peyebab seisi rumah nda sahur kan. So alarm untuk masak ialah jam315. Sementara tunggu 315 memang aku tweeting dan dengar lagu ja.

Tepat 315 am, aku pun turun lah mau pegi dapur and this is the moment where i saw a beautiful very beautiful scene. I saw my mum, my ibu sedang sujud di sejadah, tahajud. Mata terus berair okay. Bayangkan patutnya kalau kita nda boleh tidur, kita beribadah lah kan bukan macam aku tweeting.

They said. Salah satu keberkatan yang kita ada dalam hidup ini ialah keberkatan doa ibu. Indahnya. Ever wonder dari mana datangnya hati kamu yang kuat mau hadapi break up? Dari mana datangnya result yang bagus walaupun malas kalah babi? Dari mana datangnya rezeki bila kau rasa tiada duit sudah? Dari mana datangnya ketenangan hati?

Ya betul, memang ada banyak faktor lain untuk kita dapat segala jenis kekuatan, segala jenis kesenangan. Tapi bagi aku, salah satu sebab terbaik ialah doa ibu. Paling mujarab. And pernahkah kamu berterima kasih atas semua doa doa ibu?

Yang kamu tau pasal doa ni kalau masa exam ja kan? Di situlah kau ' mak doakan aku ya?' kalau mama aida, bila aida cakap macam tu, mama dia jawab 'iya nak, jangan susah, memang hari-hari mama kasi doa kau tapi kau mesti belajar juga kalau nda biar banyak didoa pun nda kau berjaya' ehehe. :P

Spend a little time, wish your mum thank you for all her prayers will you?

Setiap kali aku birthday or even in random times, ibu always text me saying that 'ibu p mana2 pun ibu nda pernah lupa doakan anak-anak ibu' and i believe every mother in this world will do the same thing despite religions and all that, every mother will be just the same.

Its just i really2 believe in doa ibu you know. So bila nampak ibu tahajud i imagined she has a lot to say to Allah, she has a lot to wish and pray for her husband, for her children, for her family, for her friend. I imagined she has a lot to ask from Allah, things that money cannot buy, things that she cannot give to us. Such as rezeki, good result, ketabahan, kekuatan, keselamatan.

I seriously believe in that. Terutama lah aku ni broken heart sentiasa by the same guy. Its not broken cuma yala kisah yang tidak berkesudahan. But my heart is kind of strong, i am not showing off, i just want to illustrate more. So i believe this kind of strong heart come from her prayers and most of it comes from her gene lah.

Take some time to say thanks to your mother, hug her. Okay? Her prayers make you you today! Her prayers keep you safe! And kalau ibu anda berada bersama Tuhan, its your time to send some prayers for her.:) say thank you, she is listening.:)

Oh and you too should pray a lot for your mother!



Very well people.
Salam ramadhan.